To Live

by Joel Edwards

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a tumultuous year.

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released February 21, 2013

All songs written, recorded, performed, produced, etc. by Joel Edwards

EXCEPT

"Unless You Say So"
produced, recorded and mixed by Lance Eric Shipp
keys, synths, and percussion performed by Lance Eric Shipp

Lance Eric Shipp and Ryan McDonald also unknowingly contributed background noise to "Closure"

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Track Name: In Death
it begins unequivocally, a startling reality of hope
where all your inner galaxies reverberate the empathy of ghosts
and a hundred million harmonies combine to form a melody of gold
where all this raging beauty is just another glory to behold

it proceeds independently, devoid of any semblance of a sin
controlled by the very thing you thought you'd had inside but lost within
it destroys all impurities, incinerates the wreckage and the dross
but keeps instead the spirit you've always run around but never lost

it concludes in infinites, a highway of eternities in dreams
where all your weary memories are taken to be ripped up at the seams
and all the wrong emotions that have washed up like an ocean in your world
are taken by a lover who never leaves his flags unfurled
Track Name: Stream
it's in the air that i breathe
it's in the things that i dream
it's in the ones that i love

it knows the things that you do
it knows the ones that you've used
it knows the problems you've solved

over and over and over again
i won't say how and i can't say when

i try to be there for you
i try to see what you do
i try to look from above

all my life i try to be

the words you say they aren't true
the words you say can't be true
the words you say are not right

the times i've been there were hard
the times i ripped out my heart
the times i cried in the night

time after time and time and again
you won't say how and you can't say when

i never told you the truth
i never showed you the proof
i never went out of sight

all my life i try to be somebody
Track Name: Crocodile
so i say i'm through
putting up with this stupid shit i do
it's a wondrous hypocrisy
a glorious depravity
but still i close my eyes and lie to you

it begins like this
a sensation to appease my beating chest
to perpetuate the malady
enlivening the tragedy
declining me to find my peace and rest

it's not your fault this time
it's all i know in my mind

it leads me on
a nighttime to replace my every dawn
repeating all my history
of silence into misery
stumbling over every vow i've sung

till i get too much
and depend on every words like it's a crutch
a propensity for unbelief
inclinations for a sweet release
absent of a feeling or a touch

it's not your fault this time
it's all i know in my mind

lord, save me from myself
Track Name: Feel
once again, i am losing
all the time i am using
once again, i've thrown it all away
i can feel the bottom fall
i don't think about it all
yet i know what my family thinks of me
i open up the world to every single thing
i close off myself to all the life it brings

open up your heart, it just takes a little bit longer
open up your heart, it makes you a little bit stronger
if you got it, than you feel it
if you feel it, than you need it
open up your heart, it just takes a little bit longer now

by now, i am seeing
the life i am leading
by now, i've used up everything
i am one just like a fool
i am done with all my rules
yet i know what my country thinks of me
it's in the spaces that i cannot see
it's in the secrets, it's in everything

open up your heart, it just takes a little bit longer
open up your heart, it makes you a little bit stronger
if you got it, than you feel it
if you feel it, than you need it
open up your heart, it just takes a little bit longer now

and even if i'm dying
i am still relying
on a universe i've seen inside of dreams
constantly this fighting
we are still denying
words to pick us up and rip apart the seems

open up your heart, it just takes a little bit longer
open up your heart, it makes you a little bit stronger
if you got it, than you feel it
if you feel it, than you need it
open up your heart, it just takes a little bit longer now
Track Name: Teenage Love
you say "i love you" when you're young
plan a wedding in the sun
you think things will never change
it seems god works in a different way

you call her up, say "we are through"
cause that's what you've always planned to do
and you'll do it again and again
you're a boy, you're not a man

blind hope will lead you home
spread the lie that you're alone
blind love is all you see
a distressing hypocrisy

all we ever wanted was to be seen
a dressing to address the wound that we need clean
Track Name: Do You See It
so to grow, you weed out all the pictures that you've shown
to all of your friends
so he said,
it's the end
but you come you feel this way instead
you watch all your hopes grow
you don't know anymore

it's a game
you don't know the last time you saw the rain
break down a door
it's nothing more
than remorse
for all of the words you tried to make
the thorn that's in your side
the wound you try to hide

how come every pair of eyes
takes you through your former lives
do you see it
even when you're at your worst
there's nothing that could quench this thirst
do you see it

now you know that every risk you take just goes to show
you need it to end
once again
things are dead
and you are left on your own tonight
helpless and afraid
never saying anything

how come every pair of eyes
takes you through your former lives
do you see it
even when you're at your worst
there's nothing that could quench this thirst
do you see it
Track Name: The Second Mile
and so, we know that wrong is right
and hatred pays for fights that
we always buy back

we see the beauty in their eyes
a pocketful of lies for
the ones we like more

we feel the child move
a skipping groove we
pretend we can't see

we say that ignorance is bliss
it's our inheritance
i don't want part in this

now who will teach the children how to love

and soon, justice will demand
the raising of one's hand to
affirm and reprove

but here, our justice is a game
an ember not a flame of
the things we once loved

so a child's life
is not worth strife cause
it does not concern us

you say that innocence is true
but wait till evil's through
i don't know what to do

now who will teach the children how to love
Track Name: A Lie, A Fake
i can't tell where the hell you're going
or what story that you're showing all the girls
just as well, i wouldn't even hear it
i've only ever feared it in my world
responsibility is a word you couldn't manage
when you took off like a savage and my time
to you is worth nothing anymore
than i could take it
it's a challenge, i won't make it anyway

every night forgiveness creeps up slowly
but i won't let it control me till you're gone
in my life, it's not something that i dwell on
it's not easy to just tell someone it hurts
improbability is all that i can lean on
when i make my words come clean on every count
we all come from some mess that we can't clean up
a sense that we have dreamed up all of this
Track Name: Jesus Christ
i have a father who is faithful and true
i have a brother who knows what i do
i have a mother who swallows my pride
i have a sister who knows what is right
Track Name: Unless You Say So
if i'm up all night and sleep all day
will i ever learn to chase my dreams away
head them up in some strange mystery
i can hold some hands and break some hearts
make amends and make new starts
if someone tells me what i want to be

it's all for free
it's all for me
unless you say so

there's nothing worse than a person stressed
you know the thing that i most detest
empty sorrows ringing through my head
a dreamer knows when he's had too much
faintly trembles at the slightest touch
dazing out of every word you said

it's all for free
it's all for me
unless you say so

so we can have each other if we want to see
how to love and not be free
to break our wills and find ourselves at home
i will sleep all night and dream all day
and wake up to the summer rain
hopefully not hopelessly alone

it's all for you
it's all i do
unless you say so